It’s definitely weird, we are parents now. But do you know what’s weirder than that? Tomorrow we could not be and that's just how foster care works. Although, our situation has some more twists to it - because we are not yet biological parents, we will literally go in and out of being a mommy and daddy. We had thought about this long before we began the process of becoming a foster family but now that we’re living this life, it’s so strange to think that our new normal can change at the drop of a hat. We will go from this house, bursting full of silliness (and dirty laundry) to emptiness and silence. But how indictive is that for the life of children in foster care? How can their little hearts handle the daily, looming feeling of impending change? I literally have no idea. It is such a big emotion for such a tiny little person. 

I wasn’t sure how aware the girls were that a day would come when they would leave our care. But sure enough, their sweet selves knew and their response melted me. I had written a picture book about the anticipation of becoming a foster family (you see my grammar. ie children's book). 'Little Lovey: Coming Home' is about how our hearts were ready and we would love these children no matter where their story took them. Let me tell you, the girls were SO excited when they found my book covered in dust on the nursery shelf. (It was as if I was a movie star and they won the lottery) We took it to the couch and slowly went through each page together. I translated the words into Spanish (praise the Lord there is only like six words per page), but as we turned to the last page the eldest one looked up and said hey, this is like us right? You were ready for us and when it’s time to go, you will hold us in your hearts forever. My brain was like: Dang girl, you know how to knock a grown woman to her knees! But my momma heart was so happy that she knew there would always be love for her here. 

I’ll tell you this experience is like none other. (10/10 would recommend to a friend). We always knew we wanted to foster (and eventually someday adopt) but every time we talked about it we said, I don’t know if we could take a sibling group or I’m not sure if we can financially handle this that or the other thing. Well God heard our doubts and one-upped us. On our first go at it, God gave us a sibling group AND an additional sweet blessing, during a time when we didn’t know if we could even financially support ourselves! Granted- most weeks are tough, financially but He always finds a way to provide for us and for them. And He completely changed our minds on what we thought we could handle. (Like sibling groups for example, do it!!)

May is foster care awareness month, I HIGHLY encourage you to step out of your comfort zone and say yes. There are so many children in need of a family who will love them wherever they go! Don’t get me wrong - Many days are so hard and they have meltdowns and horrible memories from their past traumas. BUT, when the day comes when we are sitting alone with an empty basket of laundry, I am certain we will be broken because the good days, like when they overcome something and begin to excel and form healthy attachments FAR outweighs the hurts, pains, and difficulties that is foster care.

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If you were interested in the book that made me some type of superhero in their eyes, you can find it on the Amazon. https://www.amazon.com/dp/1705522564/ref=cm_sw_em_r_mt_dp_U_wtISEbCD3EH13